The Moment I Knew

Acts 26:8-18

8Why should any of you consider it incredible that God raises the dead?

9"I too was convinced that I ought to do all that was possible to oppose the name of Jesus of Nazareth. 10And that is just what I did in Jerusalem. On the authority of the chief priests I put many of the saints in prison, and when they were put to death, I cast my vote against them. 11Many a time I went from one synagogue to another to have them punished, and I tried to force them to blaspheme. In my obsession against them, I even went to foreign cities to persecute them.

12"On one of these journeys I was going to Damascus with the authority and commission of the chief priests. 13About noon, O king, as I was on the road, I saw a light from heaven, brighter than the sun, blazing around me and my companions. 14We all fell to the ground, and I heard a voice saying to me in Aramaic,[a] 'Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me? It is hard for you to kick against the goads.'

15"Then I asked, 'Who are you, Lord?'

" 'I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting,' the Lord replied. 16'Now get up and stand on your feet. I have appeared to you to appoint you as a servant and as a witness of what you have seen of me and what I will show you. 17I will rescue you from your own people and from the Gentiles. I am sending you to them 18to open their eyes and turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, so that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me.'

Bee's Thoughts:

I have been feeling quite lost lately. The things that troubled me caused me to I wonder what I am existing for. It seems I have lost the purpose and meaning for my life. I always think of death, of going 'home'. So I have been trying to find distractions so I won't think too much.

During our Sunday Service this morning, the speaker shared a message on "Living a Life of Purpose and Meaning". It's like God was speaking to me through the speaker. The speaker asked a question, "What drives your life?" He said for some it could be guilt, resentment or anger, fear, or need for approval, etc. These are unhealthy driving forces. However, if we know the purpose God has for us in our life then it will:
- give meaning to our life
- simplifies our life,
- focus our life,
- prepare us for eternity


Of course I fully agree with the speaker. But then I still need to know that purpose to be able to do those things the speaker said.

The Apostle Paul in the above passage lived his life to the full with clear purpose. Before he met Jesus Christ, he persecuted the Christians with all his might. But when he encountered Christ, he whole heartedly served Him with full purpose too. He is such a passionate person. I am too, if I know what I should do.

I will be going for a mission trip this weekend. I pray that God will once again give me the compassion and love for the people there and find His purpose for me in my life.


Dear Lord,
Thank You for the message this morning and the example of Paul in today's devotion. You know my confusion, my pains and my struggles. I pray that once again I may fully know Christ and and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings. Teach me to do Your will, Lord.
I pray for my brother too that he may know Your purpose for him in his life. I pray You may grant him strength to carry on this journal and complete his race. May Your peace and grace always be with him.
In Jesus' name I pray.Amen.